"You catch more bees with honey than with vinegar..."

my nana always said that.

and it's true.

even when you're angry, hurt, upset, or just in a bad mood, you are far more likely to get your way by being kind.

but that being said, i've been in a terrible, depressing, utterly miserable mood lately. nothing in my life seems to be going right - not the least of which is my "romantic life," if i can even refer to it as that. the guy i was talking to/hanging out with/who knows clearly doesn't want a relationship - now or quite possibly ever - and it's just a little bit of a sucker punch. don't say one thing to me & then do another.

last week when sara & cindy were in town, we went to tracy's to meet up with a bunch of my friends. granted it was 70 decibels past bearable, i had friends in town, he had just come from a wake, excuses excuses excuses, but he didn't even talk to me. he didn't come over and sit by me once that night. not cute & flirty. not friendly & fun. what happened?

i've been thinking about what to say when i see him at taryn/jt/aaron's apt party downtown tomorrow (which i might not even get to until almost midnight because of f'ing work & unreliable people... ughhhhh, whole nother story). part of me wants to bitch him out, cry, sulk, but that is not attractive & i absolutely won't let myself sink to that level.

so help a sista out!

do i...

a) act friendly & nonchalant but jokingly say something like "well i'm glad to see you're talking to me tonight." *bitchy/flirty smile* ??

b) act friendly & as non-psycho as possible but eventually ask him what the deal is?

a scarier, more direct approach.

c) be super flirty with the other boys & not give him the time of day?

unfortunately, i know myself well enough to know that until i get answers or some kind of closure, this whole situation will be on my mind.

wahhhhh, why can't i just forget it & move on?

i know i said the hair question was important (i'm still waiting for answers, by the way.....), but this one is really important.

i need advice & lots of it.

so please advise,

because i am clearly no love expert.